The final dose of Bleomycin was given this past Monday. What a tryingly unpleasant week it has been. It began with a fever scare as it always does, peaking at 103.8. I was at Boh's house and he looked after me with the utmost care. Truly a friend indeed. I felt flimsy and faded in and out. To sleep felt amazing, the pain and bad feelings would leave me but I was afraid to allow myself to sleep without Boh watching my breathing and checking my temperature. I was shivering but so hot at the same time. It felt good to lay under a thick comforter, but a website Boh found advised us that laying under a thick blanket may feel good but it actually increases a fever. The night was very long but eventually my fever did start to subside and we both went to sleep. In the morning I felt much better although still had a low-grade fever.
The rest of this week has been alright. Ups and downs and ins and outs but all in all I'm just glad I can start to recover at this point. I was denied medicaid. I'm not sure how this country can treat it's people with such disrespect and leave us to fend for ourselves in our time of need. I was denied service at the hospital for a test my doctor requested. It's absolutely outlandish to think that anyone with cancer or any life-threatening disease can be turned away because of inability to pay. It makes me so furious I could implode.
My hope is that the worst is over though and I plan to get my life back on track and live each day to the fullest of my ability. I have a lot I want to do and I've already gotten a jump on accomplishing them. Earlier in the week, despite the looming symptoms of Bleomycin, I pursued and acquired my driving permit! I did so only with the help of my best friend Boh. I'm not sure what my next goal is. One of them is to actually learn to drive and upgrade to Class E Driver's license. I also want to learn to ride a motorcycle. Start my website JitterBob.com. Exit the country in effort to prove to myself that there is in fact something better out there than craptastic America. I want to do a lot of traveling when my situation and finances allow. That includes a road trip with Boh. I want to skydive, and jetski, and at least attempt to surf. Eventually I will make a list, it'll be so long that I'll never run out of things to do. ^_^
I feel confident at this point that I will have long healthy life so long as I take extra good care of my body. I'll need catscans and probably labwork every 3 to 6 months. I'm sure I'll always have that daunting fear in the back of my mind haunting me. The fear that cancer could strike again, or that it already has and it isn't being detected. The fear that my health will deteriorate earlier than expected. I can't let those things control my life though. Whatever will be will be, it's just a great reason to live life to it's fullest and never let a day pass you by or take it for granted. With the friends and family I have I am whole lot less worried. A big thank you to those who helped me again, I certainly cannot thank them enough.
The rest of this week has been alright. Ups and downs and ins and outs but all in all I'm just glad I can start to recover at this point. I was denied medicaid. I'm not sure how this country can treat it's people with such disrespect and leave us to fend for ourselves in our time of need. I was denied service at the hospital for a test my doctor requested. It's absolutely outlandish to think that anyone with cancer or any life-threatening disease can be turned away because of inability to pay. It makes me so furious I could implode.
My hope is that the worst is over though and I plan to get my life back on track and live each day to the fullest of my ability. I have a lot I want to do and I've already gotten a jump on accomplishing them. Earlier in the week, despite the looming symptoms of Bleomycin, I pursued and acquired my driving permit! I did so only with the help of my best friend Boh. I'm not sure what my next goal is. One of them is to actually learn to drive and upgrade to Class E Driver's license. I also want to learn to ride a motorcycle. Start my website JitterBob.com. Exit the country in effort to prove to myself that there is in fact something better out there than craptastic America. I want to do a lot of traveling when my situation and finances allow. That includes a road trip with Boh. I want to skydive, and jetski, and at least attempt to surf. Eventually I will make a list, it'll be so long that I'll never run out of things to do. ^_^
I feel confident at this point that I will have long healthy life so long as I take extra good care of my body. I'll need catscans and probably labwork every 3 to 6 months. I'm sure I'll always have that daunting fear in the back of my mind haunting me. The fear that cancer could strike again, or that it already has and it isn't being detected. The fear that my health will deteriorate earlier than expected. I can't let those things control my life though. Whatever will be will be, it's just a great reason to live life to it's fullest and never let a day pass you by or take it for granted. With the friends and family I have I am whole lot less worried. A big thank you to those who helped me again, I certainly cannot thank them enough.
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