A 103 degree fever and few dozen pokes later, I started my 3rd and final cycle of chemotherapy today. It went fairly well. No adverse side effects yet, my energy is okay, and IV was placed and set on the first try. Boh stayed with me for just a couple of hours, but he had to go to work at 2. Tomorrow Boh has to go to a doctor appointment in Miami for his eyeball. His poor retina has issues. I feel bad, my vision is no good but I have never had to have a needle in my eye for my vision problems. That's the last place I ever want a needle. That means no Boh or anyone at chemo, I'll be all alone but that's okay.
I did have a fever a few nights ago and I ended up being instructed by my oncologist to go to the Hospital for direct admission. Boh drove me, and stayed the entire time with me. It ended up being a 3 day venture. We drove to the wrong Hospital first, but it was okay because when we got to the correct location, it left much to be desired for the previous. It was a much more comfortable place to be. What made it most comfortable though, was have my best friend with me. What other friend or person at all would have endured the entire 3 days of hospital boredom with me? Who would want to? Would you? i wouldn't want to spend it with me, so if you said yes you're probably lying. Anyway... =) It was almost fun. We played video games and did friend stuff. We made it interesting but we were both very ready to do by discharge time.
I'm so glad to have this chemo business coming to an end. There is no guarantee my problems won't return, and I still have a mess of others to deal with, but this particular detour has been greatly disabling. If i had to be on chemo for a long time, I couldn't go to school or get much accomplished. Luckily youth is on my side and I don't feel like giving up yet. going through this has only made me see life more positively because i appreciate it more now than before. The delicate state of being alive could be fully realized especially when my fevers jumped to high temperatures. It literally feels like death is on your horizon when you are sick enough. It's a good lesson to learn so long as you don't actually die afterwords. <(^_^)> It's not practical to never take anything for grated, there is too much to appreciate in life to be aware of it all, all the time, always acknowledging it and being thankful for it. However I have made some real progress at attaining a constant general appreciate for life. It's a good state of mind to have. Scoffing at life or saying things like "I hate my life" or manifests for pain for you, and that sort of pain is the worst kind in my opinion.
Anyway, enough ramblings. I'm going to do something constructive like reassemble my hairbrush collection in order based on bristle density, or manicure my cuticles.
I'm not actually going to do either of those things... ever. :)
I did have a fever a few nights ago and I ended up being instructed by my oncologist to go to the Hospital for direct admission. Boh drove me, and stayed the entire time with me. It ended up being a 3 day venture. We drove to the wrong Hospital first, but it was okay because when we got to the correct location, it left much to be desired for the previous. It was a much more comfortable place to be. What made it most comfortable though, was have my best friend with me. What other friend or person at all would have endured the entire 3 days of hospital boredom with me? Who would want to? Would you? i wouldn't want to spend it with me, so if you said yes you're probably lying. Anyway... =) It was almost fun. We played video games and did friend stuff. We made it interesting but we were both very ready to do by discharge time.
I'm so glad to have this chemo business coming to an end. There is no guarantee my problems won't return, and I still have a mess of others to deal with, but this particular detour has been greatly disabling. If i had to be on chemo for a long time, I couldn't go to school or get much accomplished. Luckily youth is on my side and I don't feel like giving up yet. going through this has only made me see life more positively because i appreciate it more now than before. The delicate state of being alive could be fully realized especially when my fevers jumped to high temperatures. It literally feels like death is on your horizon when you are sick enough. It's a good lesson to learn so long as you don't actually die afterwords. <(^_^)> It's not practical to never take anything for grated, there is too much to appreciate in life to be aware of it all, all the time, always acknowledging it and being thankful for it. However I have made some real progress at attaining a constant general appreciate for life. It's a good state of mind to have. Scoffing at life or saying things like "I hate my life" or manifests for pain for you, and that sort of pain is the worst kind in my opinion.
Anyway, enough ramblings. I'm going to do something constructive like reassemble my hairbrush collection in order based on bristle density, or manicure my cuticles.
I'm not actually going to do either of those things... ever. :)
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