The Day Before...

At Chili's with Cliff

Tomorrow I am planning to start chemotherapy. I spent today with my partner Cliff. He and I went to the flea market, shopped at World Market, and then ate at Chili's. It was a nice day just spent with each other enjoying ourselves. We know it might be the last day that I can fully enjoy anything for a while, because chemotherapy is unpredictable and the side effects could be debilitating.

We will make up early in the morning as the chemo is supposed to be started at 8am and last all day long. I'll just have to keep myself busy. I'm feeling a little weary about how the chemo will effect me once it starts flowing through my veins. I imagine that it will make me feel awful. I'll have my partner and my best friend taking me to chemo and staying with me through the sessions most of the time. I'm very grateful to have people willing to do so much for me right now.

Happy, sad, worried, anxious, tired, wide awake. I'm all of that right now. Nothing to it but to do it, here we go.